asleep

After the thunder stopped, I made another cup of tea and wrapped up in a blanket and climbed into my treehouse. The ladder was slippery; it's made of wood, so the rain made it slick and slimy. It was hard to carry the tea and the blanket up at the same time, so I made two trips. When I got up there, I went to the top level--there are two levels--and I sat down against the flimsy wall where me and my brothers had written our names in paint when we first moved here. And it smelled the same as it did then, like mud and wet bark. It was cold, but I was warm enough with my blanket and with my fingers wrapped around the hot tea cup. The last time I had sat up there was with Aaron and Sam, when Sam and I were about ten. We came home from school early that day and I don't remember why, but I remember that it was getting dark outside and how I was afraid of being in the woods at night, but how safe I felt with my brothers--especaially Aaron, since he was older. Today when I went up there I didn't feel scared of the woods, but I still wanted more than anything for Aaron and Sam to be up there with me, making a plan of attack in case we had to fend off some wild animals. I wanted to share my cup of tea with them and get in a quarrel with Sam for taking bigger sips than he was supposed to. I wanted Aaron to make a carefully devised plan so that he could ensure that all of us were drinking an equal amount. He was always doing things like that, making things easier. When I was with him--in the woods or anywhere--we could do anything, because he was so brave and he always knew the best way to get somewhere.

Scintilla



i would date you so hard then marry the shit out of you

THEN RAISE THE FUCK OUT OF OUR KIDS!

AND GIVE YOU ALL THE MOTHERFUCKING LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU’D EVER FUCKING NEED.

AND PAY THE HELL OUT OF THAT FUCKING MORTGAGE.

AND THEN WHEN THE GUTTERS ARE CLOGGED I’LL GET UP THAT FUCKING LADDER AND CLEAN THAT SHIT UP WHILE YOU STAND BY THE KITCHEN WINDOW COMICALLY JUDGING MY WORK.

AND THEN WE CAN VACUUM THE FUCK OUT OF OUR CARPET SO HARD THAT WE’LL HAVE TO GET A NEW ONE.

WE’LL WASH OUR CLOTHES SO GODDAMN FUCKING HARD. FORGET NO RINSE, WE’LL USE HIGH FUCKING SPEED.

BUY A FUCKING MINIVAN TO STUFF OUR BEAUTIFUL FUCKING BABIES INTO IT AND DRIVE THE FUCK OUT OF IT.

THEN WE CAN GO SOME FUCKING PARENT-TEACHER MEETINGS AND MEET THE FUCK OUT OF OUR KID’S TEACHER. THEN JUDGE THE SHIT OF HER IN THE CAR.

AND WE CAN THEN PILE ALL THE CHILDREN IN THE FUCKING MINIVAN AND GO TO THE STORE AND SHOP FOR GROCERIES SO HARD THAT WE ACTUALLY HAVE TO MAKE MORE THAN TWO TRIPS TO GET ALL THAT SHIT INSIDE THE HOUSE.

AND THEN COOK THE FUCK OUT OF OUR KITCHEN UNTIL WE HAVE NO FOOD LEFT AND WE FEAST ON THAT SHIT FOR FUCKING DAYS.

I WILL EAT THE FUCK OUT OF YOUR HOMEMADE COOKIES.

THEN WASH THE SHIT OUT ON THE DISHES TOGETHER UNTIL OUR ENTIRE HANDS GET FUCKING PRUNEY.

WE’LL WATCH OUR KIDS FUCKING GRADUATE AND MOTHER FUCKING TEAR UP LIKE THE BADASS BOSSES WE FUCKING ARE.

WE WILL GROW SO DAMN OLD TOGETHER, WE WILL LOOK LIKE FUCKING RAISINS.

I WILL FUCKING TELL YOU EVERY SINGLE SECOND HOW MUCH I FUCKING LOVE YOU.

HOLDING EACH OTHER’S FUCKING HANDS SO HARD THAT WE SHIT OUR SELVES.

UNTIL WE DIE AND ROT AS MOTHERFUCKING CORPSES TOGETHER.

TIL DEATH DO US FUCKIN PART.

HAPPILY EVER FUCKING AFTER.

these houses I have grown to hate

Strange Day

I skipped school today to study for history. I didn't do that much studying. None, really. It appauls me how much of my time is wasted on the computer or just complaining about things. After 3 hours passed me by without me even noticing it today I knew that I had to slam shut the computer and get the fuck outside.
So I did. I read books outloud to myself and I just listened to nothing. No iPod. No TV show in the background. Just what was going on around me. Birds cars leaves horses chewing just everything. I checked my watch after a seemingly lengthy time. But only 15 minutes has passed.
Time's funny. But the fact that 3 hours can just slip by freaks me out. I didn't like it.
It was a beautiful day - I wish I could have fully enjoyed it.

I miss all y'all. This summer is going to be perfect. Okay?

Calm Yo Tits

Some things I like

 Love

 friends forever